An old flame

Thursday, August 24, 2006

An old flame Current mood: confused Category: Life I just got a call today from an old flame that I used to date. We have kept in contact with each other through email every now and then, but he called me today and we talked for a while. I am thinking about going to see him today and that is a little scary for me because we haven't seen each other in close to 9 years. We were a knockout couple in bed, the sex was incredible, but our relationship tended to be more on the stormy side. I got a little nervous while talking on the phone with him today and I can't quite figure out why. Could he have possibly stirred something in me that I had buried deep within. For so long I have remained calm cool and collected as far as matters of the heart go. I guess you could say that I have become somewhat of an ice princess for a while, in control of and detatched from my emotions towards my potential partners. I guess it was a defense mechanism that I developed after having my heart broken one too many times. I guess this particular ex of mine made me remeber a time when I was young, fresh and full of optimism and before I became somewhat jaded. I guess what I am trying to say is that I fear a face to face meeting might break my resolve and I might cave into the desires of the flesh that I have been abstaining from.